Finally Over

For all my talk of ending it with Lee, I never did. I did go six months without seeing him, and continued to find excuses whenever he invited me over. But after six months, I finally caved. I saw him. He took me to dinner, shopping- fucking made me feel like a damn princess. The attention was awesome. Except he still had a girlfriend. But they were open! Or so he said. I actually briefly met her at a concert, and I doubted they were open then because she was clingy. She also seems to be totally in love with him.

We hung out two more times, and then boom- he sends me a snapchat and says he was cheating on her with me, that they were not open, and he will not continue talking to me, and ends it with “sorry I’m a selfish prick.” Like, what the actual fuck?

I’m a dumb ass and said something about “I’m sorry it has to end this way but I had a lot of fun so thank you for that, bye.”

A huge part of me feels relief it is over. Like, finally over and done. Another part of me is pissed I even caved in and saw him. Why the fuck did he insist on seeing me after so many months if they weren’t open? I kept saying no…I tried to respect the relationship, even if they were open (but they weren’t).

Why do that to me? Why end something that lasted 2.5 years through a fucking snapchat? Aren’t I worth more than that? I wanted to end it so many times, but I refused to do it through a text (a snap!), anything that wasn’t face to face. Of course, I never could end it face to face. But I still felt I owed him that much. Apparently he didn’t think so highly of me as I did of him.

It is over. Finally over.




Actually, no, don’t go there.

I don’t even remember why I went to that site (and no, I didn’t include the actual link, but you can type it in and go there yourself), but I didn’t understand it right off. Call it a blonde moment.

I typed my username in, because I have this weird “obsession” to search for myself to see what I find. Well, apparently when you put in your username, it pops up for everyone else to see, and now I’ve been receiving a ton of snaps from strangers. Yes, yes I know I can change my settings to receive snaps only from my friends.

But it’s kinda fun seeing these thirsty guys.

I can’t figure out how to remove my username. So I will be changing my settings eventually. Probably tomorrow.

I have received so many snaps like “wanna see some dick?”, “wanna see what’s in these pants?” followed by a dick pic.

Seriously, omg. I can’t even.

And just now I receivedĀ a video of a guy stroking his dick, followed by “you like?”

I’m dying here.